To Jayne

This post is dedicated to my best friend Jayne. I have had a great time with her this weekend and am tearful that it has had to come to an end. It feels too soon to say goodbye to her. Because of work commitments I only got to spend three of the nine days Jayne was visiting town with her. But we definitely made the most of that time it's been fun and I feel closer to her now than ever. It just really sucks that I wont see her now until November when I go up to visit her.

Jayne thanks for the awesome weekend babes. Can't wait to see you again...bring on November!!

xxxx

Dearest Friend

I live in fear
Of all that was lost
I live in hope
Of all I can gain
I dream of the things that can be
I wish of a time that I can finally be me
I want to have freedom
I long to feel love
Please bring forth these things I'm yearning for
I may sometimes be impulsive
Do things and not think of the consequences
But I'm just trying to find myself

Please don't take this friend away from me
A true companion I thought I had found
I beg for this soul to stay around

I know I'm not perfect and probably shall never be so
Surely I should be accepted for such trivial flaws
I want to feel like I belong
Dear friend of mine that I have embraced
Do you know of the tears I cry when you go away
I miss you before you have even gone
Because I feel a connection that is painfully strong

I'm sorry from the depths of my heart
If I ever did anything deemed negative to you
Dear friend do realise that I didn't mean to

I live in fear
Of all that could be lost
I live in hope
Of all that we could gain
I dream of the things that we can make be
I wish of a time when "you and I" become "we"
I want to give you freedom
I long to feel your love
Please bring forth these things that I'm yearning for
We may sometimes be impulsive and not think of the consequences
But I guess we are just now finding ourselves

You are a friend I wish not to be taken from me
You are my true companion I thought I'd never find
So dear friend of mine that I have embraced
I hope I'm not a disappointment to you
I vision us laughing together in many years to come
Because I've felt a connection so painfully strong

Dearest friend of mine

Written 8th September 2005.